So I went and looked at more apartments on Thursday and Friday. And, barring something going terribly wrong in the application process, I've finally found a place.
For a one bedroom, it's actually got quite a bit of space. 710 square feet, as opposed to the 1200 that I've had here, in a 4 bedroom, 1.5 bath house with attached garage. All the modern conveniences. Well maintained. And community standards that automatically disqualify anyone with certain types of criminal activity in their background (sex offenders of any sort, physical violence convictions, property damage convictions, or any sort of felony conviction at all.) The rent is reasonable. There isn't an outrageously high pet deposit (only $150 per animal, plus $10 a month extra on the rent.) Gas kitchen, but gas and water are both included in the rent, so the only utility bill that I'll Have to keep maintained is Electric - my cell phone isn't technically a utility bill, and while I "can" live without Cable, my internet connection is kind of a "must have" for me - so I guess I should count the cable bill as the second utility that I'll have to deal with beyond the rent. On duty police patrol on a regular basis at night. 2 pools, on site laundry facilities that are open 24/7, and not that far from work or boyfriend's place. (His place will be in much easier walking distance, work will be out of walking distance, but I think I can live with that.)
The fly in the ointment, of course, is that I don't know yet whether I've been approved - and won't know until at least Tuesday. Which means that Wednesday, I could be back to looking, and down to the wire of taking a place in one of the ghetto-tastic junk heaps that I've been desperately attempting to avoid.
Sadly, my rent will consume all of one paycheck per month, and the cable, cell, and electric will consume the majority of the other paycheck, which isn't going to leave me much in the way of disposable funds once the bills are paid each month. On the bright side (if you want to call it that) since the majority of my paychecks will now verifiably be going to pay for housing (half, really) I'll most likely qualify to start getting some of the taxes that I pay in back in the form of food stamps. It galls me to think that something of such a nature can be looked at as a Positive outcome at this point. But hell, since the government isn't going to cut me any slack on my taxes so that I don't Need the help, at least those tax dollars that *I pay in will be coming Back to Me, rather than going to some welfare junkie whore with a dozen kids spawned by as many different men because she'd rather spread her legs than make any attempt to find a job.
When push comes to shove, I won't be losing that much space really. 3 out of the 4 bedrooms here in the house haven't been used As bedrooms in a long time, so there's only 1 set of bedroom furniture to think about moving. There isn't a lot of living room furniture, my dining set isn't huge, and I don't use all the cabinet space I have in the kitchen so that won't be an issue. There are 3 walk in closets - 2 in the bedroom, 1 as a "coat closet" in the hallway off the living room - so there's actually going to be plenty of space for storage as long as I organize it as I'm moving things in. There's a lot of stuff in the workshop which is probably simply going to go in the trash - old, open bottles of specialty oils and such, which I've been needing to get rid of for a while now. The made stock is already in storage containers that stack easily, and will all readily fit into the walk in coat closet, with plenty of space remaining for my camping gear. Since the bedroom has 2 closets, both of them really large, it'll be easy enough to put my in season clothes in one half of the first, my out of season clothes in the other half, and my SCA costuming and miscellaneous "stuff" in the other closet, and still be able to find everything without a hassle.
Because the place is about 500 square feet less than this house (man, I never realized just how Small these bedrooms really Are in this place!) it won't be nearly as spread out - but that also means it won't be as much of a temptation to allow the place to get cluttered up, like it is here.
I'll be starting over with a clean slate. That will be good for me on several levels. New environs will give me a boost in motivation to keep things more in order. Having to deal with rent that's due by a certain day of the month will put me back on track as far as being a bit more financially responsible and accountable to myself. Everything will work, and if something breaks, there will be maintenance people to come fix it in a timely manner. And being out of this beat up, run down old house will give my friends new motivation to actually come hang out every once in a while, rather than me having to go hang out at their places.
I think I'll start planning now for a housewarming party for the first part of August. I'll be moved in, I'll have things put away. There will be a paycheck come in a couple of days after I get back from my planned trip to Waco, but I won't have to worry about Rent again until Sept 1st. (Because of when I'm moving in, I have to pay August rent as part of the move in.)
Life is looking up. Just keep your fingers crossed, knock on wood, light a candle, say a prayer, send good thoughts - whatever it is you prefer to do - that everything goes Ok in the application process and when I hear from them on Tuesday it will be to tell me "you're all set to get moved in on Friday."